Times of Testing
Most of the time I need to talk to myself and hear myself out with the truth. At this time, its pretty amazing how the bible is still so relevant and expresses exactly what I feel and what I am going through now. Death, sickness in 2 weeks. At 3 years old, im faced with hearing options of either “malignancy” or a lifetime chronic problem.
“How could God want him to do such a terrible thing? Abraham for sure didnt understand. But he knew that God was his father who loved him. And so Abraham trusted Him.
What did Isaac feel? Im sure he didnt understand why his father is making him lie down as the sacrifice but he knew his father loved him. and so he trusted his father. Isaac didnt struggle or try to run away, he just lay there quietly and didnt make a sound.
Everything was ready. Abraham took the knife. Tears were filling up his eyes. Pain was filling up his heart. His hand was shaking. He lifted the knife into the air — then “STOP”.
God knew that his secret rescue plan could only work if Abraham trusted him completely. God had to make sure Abraham would do whatever he asked.
God helped Abraham and Isaac understand something. God wanted his people to live, not die. God wanted to rescue his people, not punish them. But they must trust him.
— excerpts from The Present (the Jesus Storybook bible)
Interestingly, Kids bibles have a way of making things more simpler and direct. I wondered what Abraham might be thinking and feeling while on the road for 3 days knowing that he will have to sacrifice his son so i opted to read this story to Caitlin tonight for me to hear out Genesis 22.
We’re on our 3rd day tomorrow, we’ll undergo a BMA and biopsy procedure. A mixture of fear and wanting to trust is battling inside of me. I know I should trust, I know He will deliver. This is God’s battle. And God always wins his battles! Its like a ping pong game in my head. To believe that a miracle will happen but at the same time, doubting the miracle and questioning the what ifs?
I guess thats why God chose a place where it needed Abraham to travel for 3 days. Its easy to trust if its the last 2 minute game changer where you find out who wins. But when it takes you 3 days and a long hike up a mountain, you are given choices:
– to negotiate or be quick to obey
– to run away or to continue walking
– to question God or to trust Him
– to dwell in the pain or be quick to obey
Abraham had real feelings but he chose to be confident that God would deliver them and provide a lamb for a sacrifice. Yet He still obeyed to the point of raising the knife already.
Lord help me to have the confidence that Abraham had when he trusted to sacrifice his only son.
Tomorrow we find out what it is. May He deliver healing.
Thank you to those who have been sending words of encouragement and prayer. One of many sent to me is this:
Heavenly Father, I release to you the burdens that I have been carrying, burdens that you never intended for me to carry.
I cast all my cares upon You – all my worries, all my fears.
Father, calm my restless spirit, quiet my anxious heart, still my trembling thoughts with the assurance that You are in control.
I let go of my grip upon the things I have been hanging onto, with opened hands I come to You.
I thank You for Your promise to sustain me, preserve me, and guard all that I have entrusted to Your keeping.
Protect my heart and mind with Your peace, the peace that passes all understanding.
Father, may Your will be done in my life, in Your time and in Your way.
By Roy Lessin, Dayspring co-founder and writer
– Faith is seeing God’s point of view, it is having His perspective.
– Faith opens the door for a miracle. Whatever we ask for in prayer, will be ours if we have faith.
We just need to stretch our faith, so God can give us a miracle.
– Faith unlocks all the promises of God. He has promised to do far more than we dare to ask.
– Faith gives us the power to hold on during tough times. Faith wont take us out of the storm, but it will calm us. It wont take the pain away but faith will help us manage the pain.
22 Some time later God tested Abraham. He said to him, “Abraham!”
“Here I am,” he replied.
2 Then God said, “Take your son, your only son, whom you love—Isaac—and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on a mountain I will show you.”
3 Early the next morning Abraham got up and loaded his donkey. He took with him two of his servants and his son Isaac. When he had cut enough wood for the burnt offering, he set out for the place God had told him about. 4 On the third day Abraham looked up and saw the place in the distance. 5 He said to his servants, “Stay here with the donkey while I and the boy go over there. We will worship and then we will come back to you.”
6 Abraham took the wood for the burnt offering and placed it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife.As the two of them went on together, 7 Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, “Father?”
“Yes, my son?” Abraham replied.
“The fire and wood are here,” Isaac said, “but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?”
8 Abraham answered, “God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.” And the two of them went on together.
9 When they reached the place God had told him about, Abraham built an altar there and arranged the wood on it. He bound his son Isaac and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood.
10 Then he reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son.
11 But the angel of the Lord called out to him from heaven, “Abraham! Abraham!”
“Here I am,” he replied.
12 “Do not lay a hand on the boy,” he said. “Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”
13 Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram[a] caught by its horns. He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son.
14 So Abraham called that place The Lord Will Provide. And to this day it is said, “On the mountain of the Lord it will be provided.”
15 The angel of the Lord called to Abraham from heaven a second time
16 and said, “I swear by myself, declares the Lord, that because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son,
17 I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will take possession of the cities of their enemies,
18 and through your offspring[b] all nations on earth will be blessed,[c] because you have obeyed me.”
19 Then Abraham returned to his servants, and they set off together for Beersheba. And Abraham stayed in Beersheba.